Wednesday, May 30, 2007
koped this from jennys blog today. haha i think its nice (:
"Work, as if you dont need money,
Love, as if you've never been hurt,
Dance, as if nobody can see you,Sing, as if no one can hear, Live, as if the Earth was a heaven."
okay im off to esplanade. yayy (:
a star fell from the sky;
1:06 PM
Monday, May 28, 2007
nobodys been updating. maybe i gotta stop coming online so often.
and start mugging! haha. i tried to start mugging today! i got up early in the morning [act abt nine plus]. supposed to do some work but i ended up doing alot of other stuff instead. so i gave up and went down to town to meet my dearest mimi. haha we were supposed to study! but i ended up buying a top from dorothy perkins. to add to my collection of another top and a jacket. all this purchased over four days. im officially broke man. lol. can you believe i spent only 10 bucks plus on food last week. but shopping cost me 80 dollars plus. i really need my allowance soon man. either that or money to drop from the sky. haha.
so we didnt do much studying. but definitely not for want of trying man. just that kept talking/playing daidi/eating/gossiping. i saw alot of familiar faces in town tho. haha i think its quite amazing how u can see so many familiar faces when u spend the whole afternoon holed up in the basement of grand cathay. haha. but i did. and mimi did too. interesting eh. so thats where everyone hides away. in the basement of grand cathay! lol.
and caroline's coming back tmr! yayy we're gonna fetch her. act i dunno who yet but i definitely wanna go! come on guys. be enthu man. we didnt even send her off! so we shld go pick her up. haha. weird logic but oh well. i miss caroline man! its been boring without her! the last few days of sch i went home everyday after sch you know! coz nobody to do anything with me. but i gotta thank jenny and sihua for accompanying me sometimes tho. thanks my dears :) i really appreciate it! but i know they have trg and all. and since the guys all disappear i really have nothing to do. so its home man. its been weird going home when theres still the sun in the sky man. and not to mention really boring at home. haha. like i reach home so early and find i have nothing to do anyway. oh well. at least the three of us managed to do some shopping on thursday (: haha yayy carolines gonna be back soon. im gonna have someone to play tennis/go shopping/go drinking/go beaching with and do other crazy stuff again (: love ya dear.
i'm glad i was brave todayi hope i reminded you of how precious you are
because you really are that precious
and nothings ever gonna tear us apart
nothing
a star fell from the sky;
7:16 PM
Sunday, May 27, 2007
this is one of my fav pics. haha. even tho its quite old.
i think, i've gone one big round and come back to you
and nothing's ever gonna tear us apart again
a star fell from the sky;
7:04 PM
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
a star fell from the sky;
10:02 PM
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
ive been doing alot of thinking lately. abt alot of random stuff. maybe its e effect of caroline not being in singapore and me having nothing to do and coming home so early and having lots of time and energy to waste.
today, ive been thinking about why i did so badly for chem test. sure, i didnt really study. but i did read through briefly. and i thought i understood the chapters. its like a really noisy wake up call. maybe its time to get down to work, to realise that a levels is in five months and thats not really a long enough time for me to sit on my butt and watch time pass. but i have to say that its a really timely wake up call. i havent been feeling the urgency, like i really have a major exam this year. my brain seems to think i got retained or sth so im not taking as this year. so i really have gotta realise that its my life and i gotta start living it. by mugging? yupp, its for your future, ming. you gotta start anyway. so stop procrastinating! so pls wake up and really start working. stop letting everything slip by so easily as if you really dont give a shit anymore. coz you do. so start working! cliched as it may sound, but its really
nothing without labour. thats the victorian spirit man. haha.
and ive thought about how fickle our human mind is. we keep changing our decisions on what we want. one min we want this, the nxt min we've decided that thats not good enough for us and we want sth else. you think you'll absolutely die if it doesnt/does happen then when it does/doesnt happen then u realise that you didnt/did want it afterall. i think
we really just want what we cannot have la. if sth is offered to us on a platter we will prob start finding fault with it and not appreciate it. and when we know we cant have sth, we start seeing how great it really is and we think that afterall, we really really want it. seriously. i think its human nature. why did God create us to be such greedy pigs? haha. maybe its not how God created us. maybe its the environment. oh i dunno. forget it.
im off. and oh yes, its one more day to HOLIDAYS!! wow im looking forward to it like mad. HOLIDAYS!! haha okay. everybody enjoy the last day of sch tmr!
your subtleties
they strangle me
i can't explain myself at all
and all the wants
and all the needs
all I don't want to need at all
a star fell from the sky;
5:19 PM
Sunday, May 20, 2007
wow blogger is finally back to normal. haha. yayy.
end of sunday. the end of my weekend! argh. haha. but it was a super busy weekend.
friday after sch rushed down to ccab to watch soccer semis against rj. it was a heartbreaking match la. i think both teams really really desperately wanted to win but one side has gotta be disappointed. and it just happened to be us. but oh well. you cant
fight fate. had rush home after the match to change and go for some make-up workshop that mum insisted i go for. even after i told her im not going for sdd. haha she was devastated la. think she was really looking forward to all the shopping again. haha. oh well. she still insisted i went. so rushed home. and i missed the bloody bus stop. damn dumb actually. i knew that i was supposed to get down there to change bus! and somemore when the bus stopped at the bus stop i still happily told eunice that i never got down at that bus stop before. and i still happily sit there and go past la. gosh. i amaze myself sometimes. so i had to walk all the freaking way back. its like three bus stops? but all in diff directions so i cldnt take a bus. haiz. e workshop was okay. quite boring actually. and i saw sihua after that! coincidentally! haha. she walked past the bus i was on at the traffic light. haha i didnt even know i was in hougang la. haha. fate man. but it was damn tiring. i reached home at nearly twelve.
sat was another rushing day. morning went to cut hair. and watch blades of glory in the afternoon. haha its a pretty nice show. shall not be a spoiler. haha. den had to rush home to change and go for harmoc concert. which was quite nice. altho i didnt know many songs. but it was e first [and maybe last] harmoc concert ive been to. but it wasnt really like what i expected. at least its not a bunch of pple standing ard blowing the harmonica. haha. supper after that and then home. it was really past twelve when i reached home man. haha. but i had fun (:
wow today. woke up early but got to church late again. whats new!? they even thought i wasnt coming la. haha. why is it that i always wake up super early but barely make it in time before they ring the bell in church? haha. i think i underestimate how long i need to change. okay nxt sunday im changing earlier. hopefully i'll be there early too. after church had to rush off for cip. selling flags for the singapore cancer society. its two dollars for a daffodil pin or you can make any amt of donation you want. want? haha. but we spent alot of time in novena square. i came back with four pairs of earrings la. and alot less money. didnt join line and ah to go back to adidas to buy their shoes. my legs really didnt wanna walk anymore. anyway. dont be lightbulb la. recently i seem to be lightbulb everywhere i go can. aiya. gotta go give tuition later man. yayy its the last session forever! haha yes, really forever! i know its kinda mean but i really am looking forward to not having to go back ever again. haha. nxt time im definitely gonna tuition older kids man. no more primary sch kids for me.
okay thats all. haha i know this is a damn boring post. but oh well. if you've alr read until here den good for you! you just learnt what i did the whole weekend. come back nxt week and u might learn what i did the whole week! whooops. okay not making sense anymore. time for me to go off. have a good week ahead everyone! and hang in there! its only one more week to the hols! yippeeee.
can you see my eyes are shining brightcause im out here on the other sideof a jet black hotel mirrorand i'm so weak
a star fell from the sky;
6:23 PM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
im confused. like really confused.
like really really really confused. okay maybe i said that alr.
but this is bad.
i wanna have a safety bubble ard myself.
one that keeps out all hurt so i'll never have to feel pain again
one that protects me from all the evils of the world
but most of all
one that keeps me from pain
or maybe i need a metal heart or sth
one that doesnt feel disappointment when you ps me again
one that doesnt bleed
one that doesnt break
and its probably one that doesnt feel either
but im wondering if the joys are worth the pain.
maybe.
then again, maybe not.
a star fell from the sky;
9:25 PM
Monday, May 14, 2007
i'm just a kid
and life is a nightmare
i'm just a kid
i know that its not fair
nobody cares coz i'm alone and the world is
nobody wants to be alone in the world
nobody cares coz i'm alone and the world is having more fun than me tonight
i'm all alone tonight
nobody cares tonight
coz i'm just a kid tonight.
a star fell from the sky;
9:06 PM
Sunday, May 13, 2007
nice peaceful weekends are good. i feel like ive had alot of sleep. or maybe im just comforting myself. sour grapes!! haha. ohwell.
the last few days have really been an endless run of coming home late, doing tutorials and falling asleep and making pen marks all over my work, falling asleep on my bed without changing into my pajamas, and not seeing my family at all for days on end. haha whats new? and with the nice peaceful weekend you might think i wld get round to doing some work. but i dunno how but the weekend just slipped away and now im still looking at the same pile of work that i had on fri. ohwell. whats new either?
have a good week ahead everyone. and dont forget to go support vj soccer on monday!
Why do things that matter the most
Never end up cutting close
Now that I find out, it ain't so bad
I don't think I knew what I had
a star fell from the sky;
3:48 PM
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
ytd was an interesting day. started off with feeling fab which was yoga for most of us. haha lessons passed pretty quickly [even the 3 periods of gp] and it was time to celebrate our dearest carolines birthday (: shes eighteen now! so old. haha.
nearly half of 06s48 after yoga (: we look so yellow la!
fantastic four after yoga!
caroline and i after yoga (:
taupoking handoko. haha.
the whole gang celebrating carolines birthday! haha.
theres caroline and her cake (: while it still looks nice and everything. haha.
okay thats all the photos for now. haha. enjoy the rest of the week!
its now and forever.
a star fell from the sky;
9:06 PM
i did the colour thing on zihui and jennys blogs. haha and i did it twice! lol. extreme kiasuism man. haha. no la. it was for fun. heres what they say.first time: It would appear that at this particular time of your life you are going through a tough time. You are feeling (or have recently felt) miserable and depressed and perhaps you are still feeling that way. Maybe all the trials and tribulations just aren't worth it. Your present anxieties could have been associated with either your 'private' or 'business' life - whatever ... what you really need at this time is to get away from it all, maybe a vacation - alone, or better still, perhaps with someone that you know really cares for you, someone who appreciates you - not for what you have but for who you are. A short vacation may be all you need to afford you the time to recover and to get back to your normal vital self.
You are totally dissatisfied with your present situation. Matters are not going right for you and you are seeking a means of escape. Your mental state of mind necessitates that you need to change your thinking patterns. Remember, if one particular modus operandi doesn't seem to work, then try something different.
It's the old old story - I am misunderstood - my partner (be it in your private life or in business) just doesn't understand me and YOU also believe at this time that you are being completely MISUNDERSTOOD by one and all. It then obviously follows that you naturally feel inhibited and not appreciated. It is perhaps because of this belief that you feel compelled to stand back and let the rest of the world go by. As for developing a firm relationship - inwardly deep down in your subconscious mind you are wary of even trying to get close to another person because you feel that if you open up your heart and feelings you are sure to get hurt. Since you are living in a society where close relationships are the norm, you feel that there is that need to conform, but any close relationships of any magnitude that you may have tried in the past have unfortunately left you without any sense of emotional involvement.
The stress and tension that you are experiencing at this time is perhaps due to your inability to achieve security and appreciation from those closest to you. This is resulting in considerable pressures. You find the situation as it stands most frustrating. You are the sort of person that would like to experience all and everything very intensely but unfortunately you are not receiving the warmth and understanding that you feel you are entitled to. Matters are not going too well. You seek a sympathetic ear but it is not forthcoming. This situation is extremely nerve-racking - and what is more humiliating is that no-one seems to care and you are powerless to do anything about it.
Matters are not all that they would appear to be and you are critical of the existing conditions which you feel are confused and disorganised. You are therefore looking for a modus operendi which will simplify the situation so that you will be able to see the 'trees in the woods'.
second time:
ou are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.
You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.
It's the time of year that you are apt to become extremely restless and emotionally withdrawn. This is preventing you from becoming deeply involved with a person or persons within your sphere of influence. If you are willing to 'let go' and release your inhibitions you will find that a great deal of physical satisfaction will result, far more than perhaps you even believed you were capable of.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You don't like conflict and you endeavour to avoid criticism. You want to do your own thing and to be able to decide what is right for you. You have considerable personable charm - and this is used with considerable effect on those that keep your company.
i dont know which one is more true. but maybe its just like the horoscopes thing. caroline once told me that tiefu once told her that if u cover the horoscopes and read all of them, you'll find they all apply to you. which is true i guess. so maybe no matter how the description doesnt really fit us, we'll still think that we see ourselves in it. i think its back to the old prob of people seeing what they want to see. haha. okay thats all for now. post pics later!
a star fell from the sky;
2:59 PM
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
hello everybody. this is my 101th post. haha.
a few days ago i was thinking abt happiness [inspired by carolines blog, of course]. sorry to disappoint, but i didnt manage to figure out the secret to happiness. haha if i was such a genius i wldnt be here now can. but after thinking so much i realised that our sources of happiness can be kinda contradictory.
some pple say you can only gain happiness from the wellbeing of others. but some other pple say that happiness comes from within, and only you can give yourself happiness. i say that there are different forms of happiness and they come from different sources. according to mingyee, theres like momentarily happiness and permanent happiness. momentarily happiness comes from the easy things, and its prob sth we have all experienced. like the happiness u get when you eat chocolate. or when you do sth you've really felt like doing for really long. or when you answer a really really hard question and prove to yourself that your brains not dead. or when you're with friends, and you just feel really happy for their company. but permanent happiness is sth you dont really feel. act i dont think i've ever felt it before. but i think its kinda like when two pple get married. they derive happiness from each other right. and its kinda longlasting since its a marriage. act i suppose it applies for any relationship la. as long as its permanent or semipermanent. haha. but actually i still dont know if happiness comes from within. i suppose that wld be more of a peaceful happiness? when ure at peace with yourself [and hence the rest of the world] and happy with your situation and everything? think that kind is really hard to achieve man. coz its so hard for us to be at peace with ourselves, much less the rest of the world.
or maybe happiness is how its defined in the pursuit of happyness. something that we can only pursue but never achieve. and thats true too. coz we are never satisfied with what we have. i think that only when we are truly contented and not jealous of anyone/anything can we be happy. but thats a state of mind thats hard to attain. haha prob some religious people have attained this kinda mindset? i dont know.
or maybe happiness is just something created by man himself. maybe theres no happiness, only a state of neutrality. most humans prob exist in that state but little things happen every day to make us a little happier or sadder. but nothing lasts forever. coz really, time heals all wounds. or at least makes our memory of it blur-er so we dont really feel the pain. yupp. so we just muddle through our life in this hazy neutrality with little fluctuations.
yupp. so this marks the end of my long winded post on happiness. gosh and i just found two very very sweet stanzas from wherever you will go by the calling.
(:
If I could, then I wouldI'll go wherever you will goWay up high, or down lowI'll go wherever you will goI know now, just quite howMy life and love might still go onIn your heart, and your mindI'll stay with you for all of time
a star fell from the sky;
9:52 PM
i think, i've gone one big round and come back to you
